The One with ...... The Puisi Cinta

Ya Allah...
Bila hamba bertemu dengan seseorang
dan hamba jatuh cinta
Izinkanlah hamba menjadi yang terbaik baginya
dan dia yang terbaik bagi hamba

Ya Allah...
Bila Hamba menjadi pasangan seseorang
Izinkanlah diri hamba menjadi pelindung baginya
Izinkanlah diri hamba menjadi penyejuk hati baginya
Izinkanlah wajah hamba menjadi kesenangan baginya
Izinkanlah mata hamba menjadi keteduhan baginya
Izinkanlah pundak hamba menjadi tempat melepas keresahan baginya
Izinkanlah setiap perkataan hamba menjadi kesejukan baginya

Ya Allah...
Izinkanlah setiap pelukan menjadi jalan untuk lebih mendekat kepadaMu
Izinkanlah setiap sentuhan menjadi perekat cinta kepadaMu
Izinkanlah setiap pertemuan menjadikan kami bersyukur kepadaMuYa

Allah...
Izinkanlah hati yang sangat halus ini tidak pernah merasa tersakiti
Izinkanlah hati yang rentan ini tidak pernah merasa terkhianati

Ya Allah...
Jiwa kami ada dalam genggamanMu
maka izinkanlah jiwa kami selalu bertaut dalam cintaMu

Ya Allah...Permintaan terakhirku, semoga kami berdua selalu berada dalam perlindunganMu.

The One with......The Raya Qurban

Raya was spent alone supposedly. But decided that it is too painful to celebrate it on my own. So, i decided to go to Seremban to be with Paerot and her family or maybe going shopping together. What strucked me as funny is when nobody asked me what i'll be doing for Raya. You see, we will be screaming and moaning when people ignore us but we are actually doing the same thing. Duhh. Whatever it is, its kinna sad because being alone somehow make us thinking of the unthinkable...

The One with ...the Plan

I'm not much of a writer and thats the truth. I often see myself as a language teacher, you know, checking on grammar and sentence structure compare to those who can really write good and thought-provoking sentence. My language, i thought, is too academical or should i say, to straight forward and i'm afraid that it'll turn people bored. So, i turn to blog to ease my fingers and to let my mind flow. Today, my day was rather fulfilling as i was consentrating on making the test paper. You probably, go awe, as in What Test paper? Yeah, test paper as in a set of paper with a list of questionsn on them. It has been a while since i last came up with one and doing it again kinna make me happy and fully-occupied.
The test paper will mark my entry into the entrepreneurial world. Monday is the day of all days where my intelligence and strategies management shall be tested. And i hope i will do well. All i wanna do is to prove to those who closed their eyes that i can do things and my 134 IQ level is not just a number but a 10% representative of world population.

Over It - Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

The One with .....the Big L Syndrom...

Its Wednesday today, aint it, and i'm still in KL trying to figure out what the hell am i doing. Well, maybe i shud practice what i've preached, .....stop complaining and thinking and start doing... Yeah, exactly. I should move my lazy butt outta here and do, do, do and be done with it. Yet, ive been thinking...should i be making this biggest step in my life? Moving to an unknown place..yikes.....macam nakpindah Pluto jer...but hey...Pluto is nothing nowadays...not even a planet duhhh...
Anyway, i started rambling on the unnessary things dah..Tapi sedih gak kan. Kenapa la jadi gini....?

The One with......the UNLUCKY day

Empty, that is how i feel now. Last nite, tak boleh nak tido sebab fikir nak balik KL untuk apa. Selalu bila nakbalik KL, ada tujuan....rasa seronok...rasa excited and i can almost see wat i can do at home. Tapi sekarang, balik macam takda makna, Sha pun takda, hari ni ke Jakarta. And i have to stay sampai Selasa. Bosan jugak. Tapi bukan takat bosan, sedih dan kosong. Sepanjang perjalanan dari Ipoh tadi asyik terfikir apa nak buat, rasa mcm nak drive terus ker Seremban pun ada, tapi called si Paerot tak jawab pulak. Mau jugak sesat kat Seremban nanti.

Ntah, hari ni semua serba tak kena, tadi pagi semua yang di buat serba tak kena. Sedih!! Ive tried to be positive and so far it works....tunggu jer lah malam ni before tido...sure nangis lagi.Masa nak balik KL tadi, macam-macam jadi, ingat nak buang sampah dulu, and ntah camner boleh terkunci diri dari luar. dah lah phone semua kat dalam rumah. I was so pissed off with myself masa tu sebab camner boleh tertutup pintu. Nak call si Ogy pun, number dia tak ingat. Aleh-aleh mintak tolong pak guard. Nasib baik kata pakguard ada sorang locksmith datang nak betul kan pintu kat tingkat 3, apa lagi dia pun tolong la cari...akhir nya dapat gak masuk umah.

Dalam kesibukan nak buka pintu umah tu, first time jumpa owner umah sebelah. Hensem siot..tapi sombong. Ni yang rasa cam nak bagitau Ogy. Lagipun, umah sebelah tu pun bukan selalu ada org, hujung minggu jer ada. Ntah-ntah laki orang. Macam biasa la, bab-bab laki orang and tunang orang ni kinna seriau sikit. Takut and serik. Haiii...nasib badan.

The One with.......My Housemate

My what?!! Yes my housemate. Her name is Shafina but i call her Sha. Yup...i told her that i might be moving down to Ipoh for good. At first, i feel rather guilty for leaving her behind because she has been a good mate. We've been through a lot...well...not really alot but we talked about everything and most of those that we cant talk to others. I find her comforting in her own way..

Ive been to many places with Sha: Perhentian, Malacca, oppss...that was it dear..... never mind, we'll do more outing after this and i hope to add Ipoh soon..hehehe. Anyway, back to Sha, she never complaints what i cooked for her and she is cool.

Ive learned so many things from her, and she thought me many things too, about life and decision. There is one time when i asked her whether i should go on with my crazy ideas and she said no because she didnt want me to make the same mistakes as she did.

Somehow, i envy Sha for several things. She has strong mental power, she tried to see things differently and dont go and judge easily. That is good Sha...

As a housemate and a friend, i wish to see her happy and never to stop smiling. She deserved to be treated like a queen for she treats other like an angel. So Sha, read this poem because i cant never say the right words because its too hard to find the exact one:

SOMEWHERE THE SUN IS SHINING

Somewhere the sun is shining,and the clouds are not in sight.

Somewhere someone's laughing,and talking about what might.

What might have been another year,for us to spend together.

What might have been another time,that I could cherish forever.

Somewhere two people laugh and joke,and carry on all day.

Talk about their past and future,in an extraordinary way.

They talk about the last few years,and how they made a bond.

They found it funny they both were different,but both especially fond.

Fond of each other everyday,so genuine and true.

A friend to tell of all your worries,if ever you were blue.

To trust with all my secrets,and keeping yours close to heart.

Knowing you will comfort me,and sharing all our art.

Somewhere the sun is shining,and we will meet again.

Become the friends we always were,and talk about what's been.

Although you're gone I know you're here,to help me through hard times.

Help me make the right decisions,when I don't see the signs.

Somewhere the sun is shining,and you will be in my heart.

For you were more like a sister to me,and we shall never part.

This is the time to let you know,how much I really cared.

I love you for you no matter what,and cherish the moments that we shared.

Dear fren, im gonna missed every single moment we've spent together, do take care and yes, please consider every meeting as our date.

Might be leaving for good!

Ipoh has never been a place i wanted to go before. But after staying for 2months, i realized that it is not as what i thought it was. The driver still reckless, the neighbour still bossy, yet the lifestyle is rather monotonous. And that is what i like about it. I used to love the adrenalin rush whenever datelines were the cache. But now, i feel more alive , yeah yeah...after the adapting process with lotsa swearing and cursing, finally i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. When i was told that ive been offered a position in a clients office, i was dumbstrucked again. Wow!!
This is an opportunity for me to spread my wings. So, I've come up with a better life strategies, wanting to juggle between fixed income and earning some extras through the business that is yet to come.
Am i happy abt it? Im not sure, because as usual, the first step will definately be a tough one.

The One with....will i say goodbye?

It has been exactly 23 days since i got the news that something beautiful has somehow ended. The saddest part about it, i didnt say proper goodbye. I was left with so many question marks and no clarification has been given to me.

People, it is not about him, but the past started flashing between my eyes. All those failures and mistakes, all those tears and torments...it was not easy to deal with but somehow i've managed to overcome my fears. I met lotsa people with lotsa different story. People met, people fall in love, people fight and people go seperate ways. What strucks me as funny is how sometimes people can be so lucky, meet and fall in love in just months and tadaaa......wedding bell starts to echo. It scares me sometimes knowing how short of time people make decision. Didn't they ever ask themselves that the one might not be the One? And how can such people gamble on something that is so continous. I cant do that! Or can i?

Whatever it is, im a girl with so many issues. I'm worried about how people will accept my deadly job, my wacky family, my weirdo friends and and most importantly, my crazy lifestyle. But hey, craziness is a guarantee that im normal. Normal in a sense that i've tried out almost everything life has to offer to know what is considered as crazy and what is not!

Again, what matter the most, new year resolution is intact and im going to proved it.