It has been awhile since i last composed here. I was kinna busy adapting to new life and my addiction to Facebook. Freaky actually because i've been hiding so well so far than being discovered by my fellow mates, then Facebook eventually entangled our paths once again.
I was having this confusion whether i should remain invinsible to these people and lead my life as it is or walk back the memory lane. Honestly, i'm scared of my past especially of the days when i was totally a different person. I've changed 360 degree and become someone else. Yeah, i wasn't this pathetic back then before i took the wrong turn of my life. I was cheery and chubby gal with the lovable attitude, forgetable face and just plain Jane who didn't really think that people can be so full of s***.
When these people saw me in Facebook, they didnt recognize me for some reasons. Maybe, they have this content life that seeing an old face is just an instant comparison of before and after, how many lines in the face ones got or even how many pounds he/she has added throughout the years. I guess i did the same thing too. I went through their album and counted the children they have, how their husband's look and where they go for vacation. In a way, i started to see how my life has turn about.
I've wasted so many years searching for things i didnt get at the end. Looking upon where i am now, im a homeless with a house and alone within a crowd. I'm scared of myself. What will you anybody do, if they are in my shoes? I realized one thing though, i need a big sincere hug and someone who is going to say that everything is gonna be ok because i'm really scared and i dont know what to do.
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